If you know me, you know that I do not promote any type of diet culture. I’m not here for any “lose weight fast” fad diets or depriving yourself to the point of starvation. I promote self-love. Love yourself at any size. My thought is, if you can’t love yourself now, you won’t love yourself when you’re thin. You will never be good enough. And that simply is NOT true. You ARE good enough and worthy. Right Now. So start loving yourself!
In the last couple of years, I have learned to love myself and to make myself happy. Sometimes it comes naturally. Sometimes I struggle. I’ve realized that the more I do love myself, the more love I have to give to others, the more confidence I have, and the better I feel. Remember, you can’t pour from an empty cup. So, if your self-love cup is empty, what love do you have to give to others…spouse, children, parents, siblings, family, and the rest of the world?
I say all of this to open up and be vulnerable. I am the type of person who will pile things on my plate to avoid doing tasks I don’t feel like doing. “I’m so busy, I don’t have time to do _______.” I have perfected this to a T that sometimes I don’t even realize I’m doing it. Avoidance. Recently, I started decluttering my house. I stopped and asked myself, “Is this another way of avoiding something else?” I haven’t quite got the answer to that, but I am taking it slow and not obsessing over it.
So what is it that I am avoiding? Have you guessed? All my life I’ve neglected myself and treated myself badly. I slowly started changing that around by practicing self-care and loving myself. However, I can see myself slipping into bad habits again. Here it is. I need to take steps to better my health. I have been working out since July 2019. I started with just 3 days a week, worked up to 5-6 days a week, went down to 2 days, and I’m back at 3 days a week. What a roller coaster! I also started making small changes to my diet. Some of you may know that I had breast cancer in 2019. This is what sparked my willingness to make changes. As part of my treatment, I take a daily pill and receive a monthly injection. Long story short, I am in a medically induced menopause. The injections have a long list of side effects with the #1 being weight gain, and it makes it harder for me to lose weight. I am not using this as an excuse. I have decided that I will not let this beat me. I will continue to exercise and get back to 5-6 times per week. Now I must also closely pay attention to what I eat and how it makes me feel. I have started my research but still have a lot more to do.
I have decided to stop avoiding my health and take control of it. I’m putting it on the front burner and not the back burner anymore. Since I will no longer avoid it, I have to cut back on some things that are currently on my plate. That means I’m going to take a few weeks to shift my focus back to myself. What does that mean for Gordita Pero Cute? I may not be designing or creating as much in the next few weeks. I may not be as visible on social media or pop up markets. I’m not stopping completely, just scaling back. Some new items that I’ve had in the works will still come out. Orders will continue to ship out in a timely manner. I just need time to pay attention to nutrition and make choices that will keep me on the cancer free road. Your support and understanding are greatly appreciated. The goal is not weight loss but health gain and to continue being gordita pero cute!
Clem, La Gordis